love & some verses

pardon the title. it's an iron & wine song. a darned good song, anyway. it just seemed somehow appropriate. and really, if you look at it through the right lens, is there any small detail in life that's not somehow about love?

so...a lot has changed in the past month or so. good stuff. all good. most of it even seems good without having to be viewed through the "God works all things together for good for me" lens. (what's up with me and lenses, anyway? sometimes things just make sense that way...) most anyone who would be reading this knows about most of that, anyway. but here's the short version, in case you missed something: accepted at aveda institute chapel hill for cosmetology classes starting august 21; suddenly found myself in a band - we've had two mini-gigs, and will be recording a few songs within the next couple weeks so we can have something decent up on our myspace page. and...that's pretty much it. the only other kinda big thing that's happened has been that i've been (that sounds like horrific grammar but i'm too lazy to figure out a better way to put it q;) doing some thinking about 1 corinthians 6:12 - "all things are lawful for me, but not all things are profitable. all things are lawful for me, but i will not be mastered by anything." - which finally (finally) culminated in actually doing something about it. if you're curious, go ahead and ask, but i probably won't get a whole lot less vague on that front. thinking too much about it still hurts a little, as yet.

alright, so it's not that great, but i didn't figure it'd kill me to post what i wrote today. cos hey! i actually wrote something, for once! q;

pictures of mountains
i ache for something i once knew
once, that was the only thing real
all else was stories
fairy tales i couldn't know
till i saw with my own eyes

all your waves and your breakers
they're crashing over me
they're surging around me
and flooding through me
all the ones
you meant for me

mouthful of silence
do i need to be alone to hear you?
hear me - do i cry in my sleep?
i can't feel it
but all this i can't feel
lays siege to the numbing cold

and i tell myself
that i shouldn't be sad
but it hurts to tear apart
that's just logic

and i'm letting you in
slowly letting you in

and your waves and your breakers
they cleanse and heal me
they fill me and carry me
broken to you
and the life
you chose me for